Xmas eve is different this year. Here I sit, drunk and alone in keiths section at the olive garden as I wait for him to get off work. I'm reading a yoga journal that tonya sent me for xmas (along with a full subscription!) and just observing my surroundings. Across from me sits a couple holding hands across the table. Behind me sits a couple from san diego. Beside me sits a family of thirteen enjoying a pre-christmas meal together. This makes me miss my family. But then I know that my family would never spend xmas eve in olive garden. This is my second big holiday without my family. The first being thanksgiving. But this has been an eye opening experience. I now know that I will never take my family for granted again. I cherish their love and all the past holidays we've spent together, and the ones we will spend together in the future. I cherish the relationship I have with keith, because no matter how far physically I am from "home", I know that as long as I am with him my soul will always be at home. I am grateful to my family who has never forgotten about me, despite the miles between us. And I'm grateful to my yoga students from whom I've felt an outpouring of love and support all year long. So yes, this xmas christmas eveis different. I feel more conscious and more aware of the love in my life than ever before. I can't wait to see what the new year brings for me.
Merry christmas to all, and to all a good night.
Love,
T
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