tuesday

Recently, I find myself becoming more and more annoyed with NOISE. The city is so loud and I never get a break from it. Even as I write this, I'm sitting in World Cup and it's so loud I can hear chatter over my headphones, and they're all the way up. So I've decided that I want to move here. This cozy and quaint little mountain cabin. Well, I at least want to own it and spend a month or two at a time here. Yes, I really could stand to be away from people for that long.

lady gaga

She has coffee and cigarettes for breakfast. I've never seen her alone and she always appears to be deep in conversation with a man. I've never seen her smile, but she doesn't look sad either. She's a complex character, that Lady G.

inspire.

Feeling very airy today. Airy in the sense that I feel light. Light in the sense that I am free. Free in the sense that I could travel anywhere I want. I want to dance in a sunny, open field while wearing a flowy dress. I want to hug a tree. Today I visualize myself floating through a field, smiling, dancing, doing yoga, laughing. Carelessly frolicking. Goddess style.

wednesday

Last night I celebrated Julia's birthday with John, Kyla & Kelly at Sapphire Hotel. So yummy and so fun! I liked that it was an intimate group and we all got to catch up. However, it made me realize that I really don't want to go out to eat anymore. Here's what it's like for me (or for the server is more like it):

• Is this gluten free?
• Does this have cheese? 
• What kind of cheese? It is really gooey or is there just a little bit of dairy in the sauce?
• Can I have a mug of hot water with lemon?
• And a regular water with no ice, please.
• Is your house white dry? No? Okay I'll need another minute.

All of those questions/requests really happened. She was nice about it and I tried not to be annoying but I'm sure I was. I also think saying, "I'm sorry, I know that's annoying" or "I'm being really annoying" is the MOST annoying thing of all, so instead of saying that I just smiled and thanked her. It's such a pain to go out if you have dietary restrictions, especially if you are still getting used to them yourself.

Speaking of the dietary issues, I feel like the gluten free/dairy free thing is working out. I still think I have some issues that need to be sorted out, but maybe it's getting a little better? I definitely feel more in control of things. I also started doing warm water with lemon and cayenne, which sounds gross but actually feels pretty good. I feel like my body is in major repair mode. I don't have much energy, and I don't know if that means I'm just lazy or my body is actually repairing itself, but I've been sleeping a lot. Like 10-12 hours a night for the past four nights a lot. Last Friday after Mysore I came home and fell asleep for a few hours without even showering first. I just immediately crashed. I wondered if pushing my body to wake up at 5:30 and practice for 90 or so minutes was too much for my body right now, so I decided to let myself wake up naturally this week and it's been between 8:30 and 10am. Obviously too late to go to Mysore. I've been taking walks, but I feel so low energy that walking with any sort of speed is not really happening. The good news is that I have lost 5 pounds since I wrote about gaining 20, I found that out yesterday. I think it mostly has to do with cutting gluten and dairy and also making sure I don't eat too late at night. I always had a bad habit of eating after my evening classes, which would sometimes be as late as 9 or 9:30 (yes, that is late when you're asleep by 11 at the latest). Things are feeling like they're getting back on track (at least for now), slowly but surely. Now all I have to do is go see the naturopath and really get things right.

vacation

I need a vacation. A real one, not a trip back to Virginia. I'm not picky about where I go. In fact, I would be happy with either of the following:

• Somewhere warm, sunny and tropical. This place should have white sandy beaches and clear water. Wherever I stay should have an infinity pool. All of my meals will be eaten outdoors with stunning ocean views. There will be jet skiing involved, and lazy days lounging on a boat. I will have a tan and wear a white bikini and look like a goddess.
• Somewhere cold, snowy and majestic. Wherever I stay will be nestled in the middle of a ski town. I will wear cozy boots, sweaters, scarves and hats and drink lattes every morning by a fireplace. During the day I will snowboard my ass off. At night I will return to the fireplace in my pajamas and drink wine. I'll be too tired to snowboard every day, so there will be a spa day in there complete with a massage, facial and probably some other treatments I'm not even familiar with.

After writing this, I have decided that I much prefer the latter. I'm thinking Aspen or Park City. I should also mention that for this vacation, I will have plenty of money to spend on activities, spa treatments, shopping and lavish dinners.