friday

Sick...again! This is the fourth time this winter season that I've been sick. And I don't just mean under the weather, I mean full-blown sick. The first two times were really bad colds, the third time (the worst) was the flu, and this time it's some weird multi-layered virus. It started out with a throat so sore I thought I had strep, and now it's somehow evolved into a sneezy-coughy-chest congested cold that's stolen my voice. It really is getting me down that I've been sick so much. I hate to be that person. I've had to get subs for more classes than I'd like, and I'm getting tired of hearing people say, "you're sick again?". Trust me, I'd rather be practicing yoga and snowboarding. But I have to wonder if maybe that's why I've gotten so sick so many times? Maybe I don't give myself enough rest. My schedule is so erratic between teaching 11 classes a week, trying to squeeze in a class or two for myself, and trying to get up to the mountain as often as I can. It's hard to give it a rest because these are all things I love! I don't want to give up any of it. And snowboarding season isn't going to last forever, especially at SkiBowl (lowest resort on the mountain). If I had to choose a culprit for my constant exhaustion, I'd have to point the finger at my 5:45 am class on Wednesdays and Fridays. I can never sleep well the night before that class, and I always want to go back to sleep afterward but now I have other obligations that prevent me from doing so. There have been times when I barely slept the night before class and I came home and went back to sleep for a solid 5-6 hours. My sleep schedule is a mess, and it has been for a long time. I love my 5:45 class and all the people in it. These people have been a part of my life every since I moved to Portland and I hate to give that up. Yes, I can still see them and sub the class every now and again if it becomes available, but it just won't be the same. It will truly be the end of an era if I decide to give that class up. I didn't teach it this morning because I don't have a voice, and I have to say that it's nice to actually feel rested. Sure, I'd rather be healthy and able to speak, but more than anything my body needed the rest. Oh, decisions. I keep threatening to give that class up, but have yet to find the heart to do it.

xoxo-
T