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My soul hurts today. I miss Cindy. I miss the way things used to be, and I know they will never be the same again. Change is inevitable, and change can be good, but boy does it take some getting used to. Sometimes it is hard to see the good in things. Sometimes it even seems impossible to see the good in things. That's where I am at this moment. My fingers are crossed for Stormy. I love her very much. I have got to learn to put my own feelings aside and just hope for her happiness and safety. In the end, all things aside, all Cindy would ever want for Stormy is to be happy and safe. Decisions will be made that I don't agree with, and I can wish with all of my heart that they were different, but for now I will try to channel all of my energy into wishing her a happy and safe life. I have such high hopes for her and want nothing but the best for her. It is out of my hands. As much as it hurts, it is out of my hands.