wednesday

Last night I celebrated Julia's birthday with John, Kyla & Kelly at Sapphire Hotel. So yummy and so fun! I liked that it was an intimate group and we all got to catch up. However, it made me realize that I really don't want to go out to eat anymore. Here's what it's like for me (or for the server is more like it):

• Is this gluten free?
• Does this have cheese? 
• What kind of cheese? It is really gooey or is there just a little bit of dairy in the sauce?
• Can I have a mug of hot water with lemon?
• And a regular water with no ice, please.
• Is your house white dry? No? Okay I'll need another minute.

All of those questions/requests really happened. She was nice about it and I tried not to be annoying but I'm sure I was. I also think saying, "I'm sorry, I know that's annoying" or "I'm being really annoying" is the MOST annoying thing of all, so instead of saying that I just smiled and thanked her. It's such a pain to go out if you have dietary restrictions, especially if you are still getting used to them yourself.

Speaking of the dietary issues, I feel like the gluten free/dairy free thing is working out. I still think I have some issues that need to be sorted out, but maybe it's getting a little better? I definitely feel more in control of things. I also started doing warm water with lemon and cayenne, which sounds gross but actually feels pretty good. I feel like my body is in major repair mode. I don't have much energy, and I don't know if that means I'm just lazy or my body is actually repairing itself, but I've been sleeping a lot. Like 10-12 hours a night for the past four nights a lot. Last Friday after Mysore I came home and fell asleep for a few hours without even showering first. I just immediately crashed. I wondered if pushing my body to wake up at 5:30 and practice for 90 or so minutes was too much for my body right now, so I decided to let myself wake up naturally this week and it's been between 8:30 and 10am. Obviously too late to go to Mysore. I've been taking walks, but I feel so low energy that walking with any sort of speed is not really happening. The good news is that I have lost 5 pounds since I wrote about gaining 20, I found that out yesterday. I think it mostly has to do with cutting gluten and dairy and also making sure I don't eat too late at night. I always had a bad habit of eating after my evening classes, which would sometimes be as late as 9 or 9:30 (yes, that is late when you're asleep by 11 at the latest). Things are feeling like they're getting back on track (at least for now), slowly but surely. Now all I have to do is go see the naturopath and really get things right.